I discovered this morning that the world actually happens before 9 a.m. on the weekend. I cannot remember the last time I was actually up, moving, and out of the house before 9 in the morning on a Sunday. My first realization when I walked out of my apartment was wow, it’s cold. Fall is almost officially here, and I’m definitely not ready for it.

I’m not going to lie – looking out the window, it’s a perfectly beautiful day. I should go for a run, or at the very least, throw on a sweatshirt and sit on the beach. I have my windows open, but still, watching the blue sky and feeling the air from indoors shouldn’t be enough.

I miss fall in Charleston. Fall in Charleston is mostly days like today. I am defiant against appreciating Fall in New York, because winter has a tendency to sneak up out of nowhere. Once that happens, it’s nothing but wearing too many layers of clothes and counting the weeks until I can take vacations elsewhere.

I spend at least eight months of the year waiting for summer here.

It’s been an odd couple of weeks in my world…life has been turning upside down on an almost daily basis. Some days, the upside down is a good thing. It’s an unexpected surprise, something that makes me happy. Those are the days that I go into work the next morning with a smile on my face, and nothing can bother me. Then there are the days that my world turns over again, and everything feels a little more empty.

Is it worth it to have that transient kind of sudden happiness? The fleeting kind that can and will disappear as soon as you blink? Or not…

This week, I’m voting “not.”

“Do you lie awake and wonder why?
Is it always the same thing or is this just a new dream that’s keeping you up at night”
– “First Week”
Graham Colton Band

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